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I woke up this morning for three minutes. I rolled out of bed, put on my slippers, and stared at myself in the bathroom mirror. That was all I could take. I went back to sleep. I didn't go back to bed, I just wenr back to sleep. I slept all day. I sleep most days. I'm asleep when I get to school, asleep when I'm telling the barista which form of caffeine I prefer. It never wakes me up, but I spend $ 3.50 on it anyway. I'm asleep when my professors are talking, asleep when I go to the store to pick up milk. Sometimes I wake up but it's terrifying so I go back to sleep right away. I want to wake up. I want to have a reason to wake up. But it's so much effort and for what? I will brush my teeth before they are clean enough to never brush again. I eat lunch and wonder how much more I will have to eat until I'm full enough to never eat again. It's easy to sleep through routine; I guess that's why I stay here. I wish I could be done with this life so I could finally sleep properly. | |||
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